Kagome knew this moon.
She had seen it before, in a vision. The red moon of her death lay behind her. This was the full moon that lay ahead.
The first moon, she realized now.
His moon.
Kagome gazed up at it in recognition—
In despair.
“No…” she said.
The word was hot and bloody in her throat. Nerveless fingers sought for her bow, to no avail. Its string had snapped in the fall.
Her will to resist had broken with it. Sesshoumaru knew this as well as she did. She saw the whites of his fangs as he leered down at her in dark triumph. His laugh was raspy, rumbling as he drew back. His blackened claws slid down her front. The tattered remnants of her haori shredded as he went, leaving her heaving breasts bare to the night.
Weakly, Kagome cried out. Gathering what vestiges of resolve she had left, she tried to jerk away—but her wrists remained pinned above her head, bound up in the constricting grip of his sparking white fur, as surely as if he still held her trapped within his claws.
Kagome’s heart pounded wildly. She stared up at him, her eyes wide and sheening. But he was staring down at her quivering chest, devouring her nakedness with his sight before he ever lowered his fanged mouth to her. Roughly, he sucked her raw, scraped against those twin keening points until she threw back her head and her moans tore from her like the wails of the damned. His claws seized her in tandem, cutting into the tender swell of her breast.
In this limbo of bitter want and bitter revulsion, she languished beneath him, until he’d laced her flesh red to her anguished satisfaction. Helpless whimpers streamed from her lips. Incoherent and unceasing.
“Sesshoumaru…Sesshoumaru, please…please…”
He relented at last, but this was no act of mercy. His eyes pierced into hers, dark and glaring. In the vise of his knuckles, her beleaguered left nipple twisted and chafed.
“What are you begging me for, Kagome?”
She breathed heavily, wretchedly. Dried blood cracked on her grimacing face. Her reiki glowed around her like a shadow-smothered flame. Her mind reeled over the question, whether he meant it literally or not. But either way, his cold, scornful tone conveyed how hopeless it was, regardless.
“Please, Sesshoumaru…please…just let me die.”
The demon lord scoffed, pinching her more cruelly still. “Of all the things to beg of me, you’d choose the one I’d deny you to the last.”
“You bastard…” Kagome’s eyes flashed up at him in sullen defiance. “I hate you.”
Darkly, Sesshoumaru laughed. “I wouldn’t care, even if you did.” Releasing her breast abruptly, he gripped her by her clenching jaw instead. “But you don’t. You only wish that you did.”
His mouth crushed down on hers then, a brutal clash of blunt teeth and lancing fangs. Blood filled her mouth, both hers and his. Tears of fruitless rage boiled from her eyes. But when his rasping tongue thrust past the seal of her lips, he met her last defense with a snarl of pain. His mouth was smoking as he reared back from her and glared down. Lips bitten and bruised, Kagome glared back, in heated vindication.
“The barrier within you…” Sesshoumaru murmured, low and dark. “So it remains.” His golden gaze kindled. “Good.”
Kagome gasped when he ripped her hakama from her. But before she could snap her naked legs shut, his fur snaked between them, spreading her thighs wide apart, to the point of pain. Taking the first two claws of his right hand into his mouth, Sesshoumaru ripped them out at the root. Red-black blood sprayed over her flinching stomach, like some perverse christening.
“No,” she cried out hoarsely, squirming in vain. “Sesshoumaru, don’t!”
But he was already slicking his bloody fingers over the split wet seam between her thighs. His fur had stretched her open for him. The cords of sinewy down pried her apart with all the steely strength of a crowbar. His blood melded with the arousal he’d wrested from her, a hot iron glaze that had her cursing his name even before he took her by the nape with his free hand and angled up her face. Neck straining in his hold, Kagome stared down at the pinioned sprawl of her own body in mute terror.
“Watch,” he said gruffly, lust eroding his deep even tone.
Before she could even think to screw her eyes shut, his bloody fingers plunged into her, as swift and sure as any blade. There was a strident, warding ring as his infernal touch met the sear of the reiki barrier within her—before it broke beneath the stab of the blow, giving way like a phantom maidenhead to the violation that was him.
The moon had gone away. Pale and cold, Sesshoumaru loomed above her, blocking out all else.
Belatedly, Kagome realized she had started to sob. Through the shimmer of her tears, she watched as his fingers pressed into her, sheathing and unsheathing in a tortuous rhythm to which she could only gush and groan. Only clench her spasming walls around him in vain to slow his hellish course. Torn between the desire to hold him in and force him out, she clutched and released, clutched and released until she thought her blistering core would boil over from the torment of each cool, piercing stroke.
Sesshoumaru could see her suffering. He basked in her suffering as he hooked his fingers into her and made her cry out his name like it was the only word she’d ever known.
“Beg me now,” he said to her, as he released her neck and reached for the singed ties of his hakama instead.
“Sesshoumaru,” she gasped out faintly, desperately, “Sesshoumaru, please—”
His fingers pulled out of her as he flipped her over, onto her stomach in the ash. Stunned for a second, Kagome pushed herself up agonized onto her hands and knees. Swallowing dryly in her distress, she started to crawl away. But his regrown claws hooked her sharply by the hip, drawing her back.
A terrible blunt hardness reared up against her prone, defenseless entrance. Claws dug into her shoulder as she choked. A body like stone bore her down, infinitely heavy. Sesshoumaru’s ragged voice panted in her ear.
“…Keep me sane, my love.”
Inuyasha © Rumiko Takahashi
Next part is the last…
So what happened to the spirit that was fighting him? Is this really about to happen?!?!?! (Holding my breath)
Lol I wondered this too! I’m very confused by all that…
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I’ve had some moments of catharsis reading this, to be honest. I think anyone who has gone through trauma, particularly sexual in nature, can probably relate.
Kagome’s fear of not wanting to see or re-live past memories is so relatable. No one wants to go back to that closed door in their mind. And you can feel it through the entire story, looming over her. Something awful happened, but she doesn’t remember. And when she has any inkling of it, she’d brush it aside and hold onto something she remembered as “happy” or “stable”, even if that meant a skewed remembrance of her marriage to Inuyasha.
I don’t find Sesshoumaru here particularly redeemable, but I don’t think that’s the point though. He is not human, and even us readers probably get confused with that at times. It’s a mindfuck. He lives totally outside our comfort zone.
And now we come back to full circle with their legit unholy union lol.
Char, you’ve created a masterpiece in exposure therapy! Bless you!
xx
Thank you, A.R. <3 I'm honored by the compliment - these subjects are beyond tricky to try to depict in a way that does them justice. It's been an emotional journey writing this story, to be sure. So glad you've found catharsis in reading it <3
"He is not human, and even us readers probably get confused with that at times. It’s a mindfuck. He lives totally outside our comfort zone." - so well said! Could not agree more with this assessment, and it's one I have to remind myself of continually so that I don't 'humanize' him too much. He is very much an alien being, but, hey, that's part of what makes him such an intriguing character, right? 🙂
Thanks so much for sharing your thoughts & hope you enjoy the conclusion!! <3
Nooooo!! It can’t be almost over!! This story has been a part of my life for so long the thought of it being over is almost painful 🥲. I love the give and take between them, the fire, the sexual tension. I know this final moment of satisfaction will be so sweet and satisfying for both of them. Once they get together in this way, they’ll never give it up. It’s terrifying but invigorating. I imagine he will immediately impregnate her as well, as that seems to be their thing. 😂
But I don’t understand how it could possibly be over in one more chapter—it seems like there is so much left to resolve? I’m greedy but I hope they will have a 10 part epilogue 😂 Thanks so much for all your hard work, Char! It’s really incredible what you’ve accomplished here. ❤️
Thanks so much, Alex <3 Truly appreciate it!! I'm reeling a bit here myself, now that we're finally approaching the end - what a crazy journey it's been through the years! Can't tell you thank you enough for coming along with me on this crazy ride hahaha! <3
"I’m greedy but I hope they will have a 10 part epilogue 😂 " - careful what you wish for lol! <3 The broader universe leaves some room to be explored 😉
Thanks again, my friend, and hope you enjoy the conclusion to the tale!
Is the next part really the last? It still feels like we have such a way to go, I have so many questions! Lol! I love this story! I can’t wait to see what happens next, and although Control is coming to an end, I’m crossing my fingers for an epilogue or more side stories, because I’m so invested in this universe you built. Also, looking forward to reading something new from you! I loved reading your PMO four part fic, and it made me want more! Looking forward to the possibility of updates on your other stories on here as well!
Anyways, fantastic job as always, hope you’re doing well Char!
” I can’t wait to see what happens next, and although Control is coming to an end, I’m crossing my fingers for an epilogue or more side stories, because I’m so invested in this universe you built.” – aww thank you so much, mim! I’ve become so invested as well! It’s truly been awesome creating this universe, and I’m so happy you’ve enjoyed exploring it along with me <3
Really can't express how much I've valued your words of support and encouragement along the way! So thrilled you enjoyed the PMO fic as well!! - it was a fun little side venture 🙂 I'm very stubborn about finishing my WIPs, so as long as I'm still alive & kicking I will be planning on circling back to complete The Pact, etc. It's fair to say my WIPs kinda haunt me 😅 - lol, but in a good, motivating sort of way!
Ahh I'm rambling, but anyway, thanks so much again! Hope you enjoy the conclusion to Control...! <3
This is truly the end 🥹 I can’t believe it’s really happening. So much has gone into this story and I have to say it is hands down the BEST Sess/Kag fic I have ever had the pleasure of reading. I hope Sesshoumaru puts 15 puppies in her after all of this because damn they’ve both been through so much. They deserve a family at the end of this. Wondering what the end is for all other characters though 🧐
Ahhh I can’t believe it either! 😭 It’s really kinda surreal!
“So much has gone into this story and I have to say it is hands down the BEST Sess/Kag fic I have ever had the pleasure of reading. ” – <3 <3 <3 <3 damn I'm tearing up - you got me there! That is the finest compliment I could receive - thank you from the bottom of my heart, Blackberry! It's been such a joy to share this adventure with you!!
These two have certainly been through a trial by fire! XD Hope you enjoy how things end for them in the next part...happy reading, my friend! <3
I’m in such a love-hate relationship with how Sesshomaru acts and behaves. He’s acting all caring and passionate one minute being a cynical bastard the next.
You’ve done a masterful job writing his character here. It’s the perfect portrayal of an emotional abuser.
I’m at fault as well as Kagome because sometimes I may think of him as redeemable and associate his actions with emotions when they are actually just selfish purposes.
As Kagome stated some chapters back he does not actually understands love but he’s acting according to what his instincts associate love with (to possess, to conquer).
I love the ending line, that sounds so loving in contrast with his viciousness in the previous parts. ❤️
“As Kagome stated some chapters back he does not actually understands love but he’s acting according to what his instincts associate love with (to possess, to conquer).” – love this insight! Thanks so much for sharing your thoughts on this scene, Elle & so glad you enjoyed the final line <3